KUSIMPAN DALAM DADAKU SAJA

disaat manusia kan berfikir tuk menggunakan hatinya

dan kita terbiasa menjaga dinginnya dunia

disaat engkau mulai tertidur

dan itu yang tlah kutunggu

tuk bisikan sesuatu

yang takkan pernah engkau tahu

aku hanya manusia

yang mungkin merasa luka

melihat kau bersamanya

lihatlah aku tertawa

tanpa pernah engkau tahu

yang sesungguhnya kurasa

betapa menyakitkan semua

cobalah tuk sedikit lebih peka

   menyakitkan inilah kenyataannya 

   kita bersentuhan tanpa pernah tuk dapat saling bersama

   ku menahan untuk tak menyentuh hatinya 

   tak memikirkannya meski hati ku kini sangat tersiksa

disaat kita selalu bersama dibawah sejuknya dunia

dan aku tersadar betapa cantik wajahnya

betapa menyebalkan senyumnya

dan tak kan pernah kulupa untuk saat ini

mungkin untuk selamanya

dan lihatlah senja kan bersinar

saat kau bersedih aku luka

biarkan berjalan apa adanya

sampai ku tertidur untuk selama2nya

dan kita kan menahan diatas semua rasa

yang takkan pernah terungkap

simpan semuanya

disaat engkau tertawa disaat itu kucoba

menahannya

kusimpan dalam dadaku saja

new year's resolutions

2011.
it 5 in the morning and I could not sleep.
funny how time came and went so fast. sudden growth as fast as Lotte Mart and 711 royal. let's jump back to 2010.
many things I have achieved in 2010 to meet the resolution last year, moved out of my parents' house', buy all the things in the list, go to new places, going to college the country, parted with friends sma,. i though ill go through trials along the way, all i experience has made me stronger and wiser. and it's fun. mostly i guess.
peak later this year, I still do not have the certainty of the feeling to Novi, maybe she's not my soul mate cause it was almost 2 years I can not certainty. DAMN!
resolution this year are: in no particular order:
-spend more time with family
healthy-living life
-enjoy life more
-go to YK
-stop drinking
i think that's it, i dont want to set my goals too high. this year's gonna be tough cause this will be the year I have to live without Novi cause I've decided to get out of her life, oh shit I'm not ready without her. will keep all the mental pictures I took in my head and make new ones. I hope to hold on to. damn. there are lotta things I want to write about .. now I all could think of was the word .. fuck

I'M SAY TO MY SELF

I'm looking forward for the moment where i get to say to my self "WOW, DANA,I'VE NEVER SEEN YOU THIS HAPPY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE"